I'm not doing well at all. Long.

[iheartbanjos]

Love, light, and many prayers for you.

[ksun]

tons of juju your way.

[mountaingirl]

Oh His. Hugs to you. I wiah I could make everything. Etter for you.


Sending you love from NY

[runforrest]

So many hugs. You have every right to feel however you want to feel, and don't be sorry or guilty about it for one second.

With respect to food, would smoothies or something with protein be something you could drink to keep up your calories?

So many hugs.

[spedrunner]

Oh his. I want to give you a big hug! <3

[zitiqueen]

Rage away, His.

[happywife]

Many, many hugs and prayers. Para la mera mera!!!

[carrotsmakemefat]

Oct 21, 2016 11:33:04 GMT -5 rachel6789 said:

I'm so sorry, His. Are IV fluids an option? Maybe go in for a couple of hours just to get hydrated? That might make you feel a little bit better. You're being so strong. Hang in there!

100% this! Aren't they also doing pre hydration before chemo rounds? With all your pre meds?

My sister has had to get readmitted for hydration. Don't mess around with it. Get what you need! In terms of food - ensure drinks! Or my sister really loves this brand called svelte and it's similar to ensure. You know this better than I do, but just eat whatever you can keep down. Focus on calories and protein when you can

If in person support groups don't work for you, how about online ones? Through healing well forums or maybe see if you can find a closed group on Facebook? I do both for myself and I much prefer the FB groups.

Cancer is an asshole and I'm very sorry you're in this place.

[laceylaplante]

I am so, so sorry.

Man, fuck cancer.

[lilac05]

I'm so sorry, His. Be angry. Be sad. Be whatever you feel like being right now.

One of my favorite quotes: Not allowing yourself to be sad because someone has it worse is like not allowing yourself to be happy because someone has it better.

This sucks. Yes, some people have it "worse." But that doesn't make your situation suck any less! It's like comparing -20°F to -30°F. They're both just really freaking cold. Your situation just really freaking sucks.

I'm sorry to hear that the support group wasn't a good fit. I can guarantee you that you weren't the only angry/sad person there. I bet if you had shared exactly how you were feeling, that you would find others feel the same way...they're also trying to pretend to be OK because "everyone else is." I'm glad this board can be here for you, but I wish you had people who were in your shoes IRL, too.

Big hugs and many prayers, His.

[meganew]

You have every right to feel all of those feelings and you have every right to complain as much as you want, because it does fucking suck and it is really fucking unfair. And you can be mad as hell about that.

Not the same as your situation, but when my grandfather was in hospice and it was near the end I was just so mad all the time. A cashier at Panera handed me my change and told me to have a great day and I had to bite my tongue not to scream "It's not a great day you fool! Everything sucks!" It's not a feeling I would have understood until I felt it, you know? It's awful. And I'm so sorry that you're going through this and I wish we could take it away. So if venting about it on here helps, then we are open ears 24/7. <3

[missyny]

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[Deleted]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I think your feelings are completely normal.

[definitelyO]

I'm so sorry. vent away here,.