You may be thinking that they are moving so quickly because you are dying. They aren't. They are moving so quickly because they think you can live. You were placed in their hands at the most perfect moment: when you are severe enough to be seen at a top hospital but with enough time that they feel they can help.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I'm praying for the absolute best for you.
Post by roadbananas on Feb 2, 2017 16:01:20 GMT -5
All the prayers that can possibly be given to you. I think of you often. Hang in there, you're a fighter and a rock star!! Everytime I come across one of the little croses like I left in PA by a tree for you (whether one of the dozen or so dd has hanging around, or where we get them at the bagel shop)... I think of you more. I find them a lot around the house when I clean, so you are here in my home every day. Whatever path this takes you, you surely have left a beautiful mark here!!!!!
Many hugs to you. I thought about this Ted.x talk by Ash Beckman about coming out of the closet (and not the "normal" closet, per se) and she states that we all have closets and the "closet" is just another hard conversation. Maybe you can find something out of this to help you. Excuse me if I overstepped.
I will keep sending good vibes and love your way. You're incredibly strong and your love and concern for your family chokes me up because they are so lucky to have you. I'm glad you are going to speak with the priest as they can be so helpful and offer clarity! Love and light.
I know a researcher at MD Anderson. I've asked her to keep you in her prayers in addition to mine. If you've got people like her that could help, you're in a good place.
You've been in my prayers for a while, but I just wanted to tell you I think you are an amazing lady and I'm thinking of you. You're in great hands with MD Anderson.
Can I just ditto everyone else? I don't think any of us ever mind listening to your vents...you need to get your thoughts and emotions out, you need that relief. I hope you can find the strength to talk to your family, I'm sure the thought of the conversations is emotionally overwhelming. My mom told me about her cancers via email every time (3 different cancers in 5 years or so)...maybe that isn't the best way to receive the news but I think it was easier for her that way and that's what matters.
Oh, gosh. I didn't realize your family didn't know the full diagnosis. What a mind fuck.
I'm really sorry, V. Please don't apologize for venting. You know you're more than welcome to do so here. I'm sending lots of good thoughts and hugs. I think it's great news that MDA is being so proactive and is willing to take some serious steps to get you good help. They are the best and they know what they're doing. Leave it up to God and know that He has you in His hands. (I really hope that is comforting and not patronizing.)
I rarely post over here but I cannot help but share that you and your loved ones are in my thoughts. I know that no words will make any bit of difference and I wish I could offer you peace and health without sounding cheesy. So much strength coming your way.
Thinking of you! I agree with the pp who said they are rushing because they believe you have a great chance with their treatments and they want to get started ASAP to have the most impact.