faint BFP - final update

[msmerymac]

I’m 7dp5dt. Took a test the earliest I’ve ever tested. I got this faint line. I think it’s a positive? FET, so no trigger shot this cycle.

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I’m cautiously optimistic and debating taking a digital tomorrow or Thursday. My beta is on Friday. I know it could be a chemical, and with 3 early losses, I’m nervous too.

I’ve been on immune protocol so far this cycle, and avoiding dairy and gluten so I’m crossing my fingers it makes a difference.

[scm1011]

Congrats!! That is undoubtedly a line. Fingers crossed this is your take home baby.

[pinkpeony08]

Definitely a line. Sending good thoughts that this is it.

[icedcoffee]

YAY!! Congrats!!

[seeyalater52]

Definitely a positive! A lot of people will have lines darker than that at 7dpt, but it's not inherently a bad sign. Keeping everything crossed for you. Is your beta on Thursday?

[msmerymac]

Jan 28, 2020 12:18:38 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Definitely a positive! A lot of people will have lines darker than that at 7dpt, but it's not inherently a bad sign. Keeping everything crossed for you. Is your beta on Thursday?

Friday! 

[Mushe]

Congrats! I know the worry of PGAL, but I’m rooting for you. 💕

[bronxgirl]

I see a line!! Fingers crossed for Friday :-)

[ilovecandy]

It's a line! Keeping all my fingers crossed for you!

[pandora89]

Definitely a line! Congrats, FX for you for a sticky baby!

[msmerymac]

I followed up with a positive on a digital test this morning. I'm anxious to see what my beta says tomorrow.

[shauni27]

Jan 30, 2020 8:31:39 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

I followed up with a positive on a digital test this morning. I'm anxious to see what my beta says tomorrow.

I am hoping and praying for good news!

[joenali]

Thinking of you! Fingers crossed for tomorrow!

[seeyalater52]

Thinking of you today mery!

[pinkpeony08]

Hope it guess well today!!

[msmerymac]

Beta is at 58 this morning (explaining the faint line 3 days ago!). They want to see me for the second test on Monday, as usual. I told my H that as long as it doubles by then, they'll be happy.

[pickel]

Congratulations!! My fingers are crossed got a Monday!!

[lovelyshoes]

Congratulations! I know how stressful it is. Best wishes for tomorrow’s beta.

[seeyalater52]

We are with you, friend. ❤️

[msmerymac]

Beta was 141, which is almost 2.5 times the first results/more than doubling. I was like, "Oh! That's good!" I was surprised to see it work out I guess. They still want to keep a close eye on me, so I'll go in for a third one on Wednesday. I also know they can't see anything on an ultrasound until it reaches a certain threshold, so based on Wednesday's results I'll schedule my first real monitoring session, hopefully.

[msmerymac]

302 today! I was so nervous and waiting for that call. I'll go in for monitoring on Monday. Unfortunately, my doctor is at the more inconvenient office that day, boo (traffic, city parking, then turning around and driving an hour to work...)

[msmerymac]

Beta was 1638 which seems ok. Saw a yolk sac. They're saying 5w4d. My progesterone was only at a 10, though, and that's with 1.5 ml of PIO in the morning and crinone 8% at night. I've already increased it from 1 ml to 1.5 ml a few days after transfer and my progesterone was up to 19 on the day of my first beta, so NOW I'm freaking. They want me to add a second crinone every day. *Sigh*

[pinkpeony08]

A yolk sac is a good sign! I'm currently on 2 ml PIO in the morning plus 200 mg progesterone pill taken vaginally - 200 am, 200 afternoon and 400 before bed. I'm told that it's protective and you can't really over do it. I hope they can get yours bumped up quickly!

[cherryvalance]

Good luck msmerymac!

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IIRC, I think my progesterone had me worried at one point by going up and down. FX that it's just a little hiccup and gets sorted out with the extra meds.

[bronxgirl]

Good luck. I'm rooting for you!!

[scm1011]

Rooting for you and that little one!

[King26]

just seeing this, congrats!

[msmerymac]

Okay, not a good update. I’m 6w4d today, which is as far as I got last time, so that’s cool.

I went in for an ultrasound. I had the same tech as last time. She looked and said, “you’re what, about 5 weeks?” And my heart dropped. I’m almost 7. Also, she had my dates right there! She said there was some growth (doubling actually) and could see a fetal pole, but no heartbeat yet. I talked to the doctor after that and said I was concerned that the growth was too slow. He said, “honestly, I’m sorry, but I have to agree with you. We would expect to see a heartbeat by 6w2d at the latest.”

I have another appointment on Thursday. My doctor is really great and honest, but really sympathetic too.

So I might have to schedule a d&c this week. I’ll hope for that over the sudden bleeding/emergency room song and dance.

Also my MIL was in the waiting room because we were driving her to the airport after my appointment. She and H had a chance to talk in the car.

I think I might be done with treatment. I’ve done 5 egg retrievals, 6 transfers (of 7 total embryos, 4 of them PGS normal). We have 5 left (4 PGS normal and 1 unknown). My SIL might look to see if she could be a candidate for gestational surrogacy for us, but even if she does it for free, it’s probably $60k for legal and medical expenses that we’ll need to take out a home equity loan for, so that’s on like a year?

Guess I’ll plan that 10th anniversary trip now since I won’t be giving birth that week.

[seeyalater52]

I’m so sorry to see this update. Sounds very similar to what happened with my last pregnancy and it’s just heartbreaking. Thinking of you.

[achi]

I’m so so sorry. This is gut wrenching.