BFP (again) on transfer #6

[seeyalater52]

Friends, I’m 6dpt testing positive and totally spinning out. On Friday I had my first confirmed PGS normal embryo transfer of a 6BA hatching embryo, which is the 6th transfer I’ve done and the 8th embryo we have transferred. My RE did the transfer for the first time (the other two REs in the practice have always been in the clinic on my transfer days) and covered me in a nice warmed blanket afterwards and it was probably the nicest transfer I’ve had.

I did a semi-natural cycle with letrozole and ovidrel so I’ve been testing out my trigger and while it never completely left my system, I’ve had progressively darker tests since 5dpt. With two days in a row of clearly positive tests I’m definitely pregnant.

This is my 5th pregnancy with no living children and I’m so incredibly scared about everything that could go wrong. I’ll be 4 weeks exactly this Sunday which is the due date of the daughter we lost over the summer and it just feels like so much emotionally. Fuck RPL.

If you pray, please pray for me or think of me. My beta is Saturday at 8dpt.

[pinkpeony08]

Everything crossed for you. Sending so many good wishes. One day at a time.

[pandora89]

Thinking of you, have everything crossed for you! FX.

[scm1011]

Thinking of you <3

[msmerymac]

<3 <3 <3

Girl, you know I'm right there with you! Praying so hard. Today would have been my due date with my daughter as well.

Are you doing anything else with the semi-natural cycle, like claritin/pepcid or prednisone? 


ETA: Regardless of the risks or outlook, I told my H this morning that being in THIS position (pregnant for today) puts me in a much better head space regarding the due date than I would have been otherwise. But everything is still so hard. (And I'm still triggered by people asking me if I have kids, or people announcing their pregnancies or new babies, like at my high school alumnae event last night...)

[CrazyLucky]

I pray and I'll be praying for you.

[seeyalater52]

Feb 6, 2020 9:21:16 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

<3 <3 <3

Girl, you know I'm right there with you! Praying so hard. Today would have been my due date with my daughter as well.

Are you doing anything else with the semi-natural cycle, like claritin/pepcid or prednisone? 


ETA: Regardless of the risks or outlook, I told my H this morning that being in THIS position (pregnant for today) puts me in a much better head space regarding the due date than I would have been otherwise. But everything is still so hard. (And I'm still triggered by people asking me if I have kids, or people announcing their pregnancies or new babies, like at my high school alumnae event last night...)

Thank you everyone. I know many of you have also been in this RPL hell.


Mery, I thought of you and your baby when I realized you were transferring just before me and were due just before me the last time we were both pregnant. Hoping with everything I have that this is it for both of us.

I’m addition to the meds for the cycle (letrozole, ovidrel, endometrin) I’m also doing baby aspirin, prednisone, Claritin, Pepcid, and Benadryl. This is the same mix I did last time which got me the furthest so fingers crossed.

[achi]

Ohhh seeyalater52 so much love to you. I will send out all the sticky baby vibes I can possibly muster for you.

[starryfish]

praying for you!!!!!

[raangoli]

I’m on the app and don’t go here but I wanted to send you good vibes. I’m hopeful that this is it for both you and msmerymac

♥️

[janegold]

Thinking of you, and so hoping that this is it!

[icedcoffee]

Thinking of you!

[joenali]

I’ll be thinking of you for sure! I hope the best outcome happens for you both! <3

[moonriver]

Oh, I am so hopeful for you. So hopeful.

[pickel]

That is great news! I’ve been checking in for updates periodically. I have everything crossed for you!!

[red]

Prayers sent your way. <3

[shoeless]

Everything crossed, good thoughts and prayers headed your way

[Mushe]

Much love and many good thoughts for you! 🌈

[seeyalater52]

Thank you all.

This morning I’m back to freaking the fuck out that my tests aren’t dark enough or aren’t getting darker enough day to day. Fuck PGAL. I’m so scared I’m having another chemical.

[pinkpeony08]

Feb 7, 2020 8:22:56 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Thank you all.

This morning I’m back to freaking the fuck out that my tests aren’t dark enough or aren’t getting darker enough day to day. Fuck PGAL. I’m so scared I’m having another chemical.

Ugh PGAL Is so hard. One day at a time is all you can do. Thinking of you

[pooh8402]

FX for both of you! I'm hoping these will stick for yall!

[achi]

Big hugs. This stage is so so hard.

[knx9211]

Sending good thoughts your way. Hoping for a great appointment tomorrow. ❤️❤️❤️

[barney96]

I hope this is your take home baby. Snuggle in tight baby!

[stellelinds25]

Sending all the prayers and good thoughts. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow!

[loira]

I really, really hope this is it for you!

[FishChicks]

I deeply understand the fear that comes with a positive. I am hoping and praying and crossing all my crossables that this is the pregnancy where the fear is finally unfounded. Sending so much love your way.

[starryfish]

Feb 7, 2020 8:22:56 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Thank you all.

This morning I’m back to freaking the fuck out that my tests aren’t dark enough or aren’t getting darker enough day to day. Fuck PGAL. I’m so scared I’m having another chemical.

My tests did not get darker always fir several days. My test was not very dark for 7-8dp5dt

[seeyalater52]

Feb 7, 2020 22:35:30 GMT -5 starryfish said:

Feb 7, 2020 8:22:56 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Thank you all.

This morning I’m back to freaking the fuck out that my tests aren’t dark enough or aren’t getting darker enough day to day. Fuck PGAL. I’m so scared I’m having another chemical.

My tests did not get darker always fir several days. My test was not very dark for 7-8dp5dt

Thanks. I know this can be true but for me it never has been so I try not to focus on it.

This morning my lines look a lot better though, so feeling a bit more calm going into my beta.

[FishChicks]

Feb 8, 2020 5:42:02 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Feb 7, 2020 22:35:30 GMT -5 starryfish said:

My tests did not get darker always fir several days. My test was not very dark for 7-8dp5dt

Thanks. I know this can be true but for me it never has been so I try not to focus on it.

This morning my lines look a lot better though, so feeling a bit more calm going into my beta.

Can I just tell you how much I love reading this? Hoping for a great number and an even better repeat!