I'm gonna leave this here

[whitemerlot]

My heart is breaking for you. You deserve better.

[vicky]

Good god, friend.
Are any of us local to you?
You need to start formulating a plan. For your own health and safety at the very least.
I'm sorry he is so horrible to you.

[cabbagecabbage]

Oh God. I'm so sorry. Any one of those is terrible but that pattern is frightening.

[ZoeHart]

You deserve better, no one should be treated like that.

[gretchenindisguise]

Oh I just want to come and hug you and pack you up and drive you away.

[gretchenindisguise]

Tell this to your BFF.

[verycontrary247]

I want to give you 100 hugs.

I stayed married for way too long for similar reasons with similar circumstances. Starting over sucks, but I promise it's worth it. You are worth it.

[Ohhmm(bligo)]

EW. You're too awesome for this shit. ML is here for whatever you want.

[ava]

I'm so sorry. I don't have any advice but I wanted to give you hugs. Lots and lots of hugs.

[okla]

I am so sorry. Please know you are a worthwhile person and deserve to be happy.

If you feel ready to leave, and honestly even if you don't, please call either the national domestic violence www.thehotline.org or a local shelter/certified DV provider. They can help with resources to keep you safe and counseling to help you cope.

[demofea01]

I want to come help you pack and drive away into the night with your kids, never to see that asshole again.

[bonnie]

Big hugs to you. I'm so sorry you're struggling with all of this.

[cookies]

I'm so sorry. You do not deserve this. Please, please talk to someone.

1-800-799-7233

This is the number for the domestic abuse hotline.

[ErinExpat]

Do you have shared bank accounts? Do you have one of your own? If possible, move some money into that account or give it to someone you trust to hold for you.

Start making a plan.

And please reach out to someone. 

[underwaterrhymes]

I'm so sorry. I sent you a PM before you posted this. Don't feel like you have to respond, but if you want to I'm willing to be an ear.

I'm encouraged that you know this isn't how it's supposed to be. That's a good first step.

Just so you know, you can still love people who are abusive. Many, many people love their abusers. It doesn't mean you're defective or asking for it or enabling it. I want to make sure you know that. And it also doesn't mean you need to stay with him. You are worth more than this, no matter what he's told you.

Do you have someone IRL you can reach out to?

[SKP82]

I'm so sorry.

It is okay to leave.

Please seek help if you are contemplating suicide again. Your life can be better than what it is currently.

Huge hugs to you.

[scottyderp]

You mention a past suicide attempt.
You have worth.
This is not okay.
Get help, therapy, pack the kids up and stay with family.
Don't feel shame for letting this out.
Don't let him win.

[greyflora]

Good God honey- I'm just a lurker but my heart is breaking for you. You deserve so much better..I see that he keeps tabs on your phone but can you reach out to anyone nearby?

[gretchenindisguise]

Seriously. Call someone.

Call one of the numbers posted.

Call your BFF. Read her your post.

Call a family member. Read her your post.

You don't have to figure out what to say. You've already figured that out. Read them the words.

[pixy0stix]

You don't deserve that. You can get out and still love him if you want. But for you, yourself, you need to get out.

[Narwhal]

You deserve better. Your kids deserve better. I am so sorry. Please know that anyone who judges you for two divorces is a total asshole and not worth a second of your time. ((Hugs))

[snipsnsnails]

Don't regret this, super. Because this is the first step in what it takes to leave. In case you haven't heard it in a long time, you're worth more than what he will give. It won't always hurt like this. (((Hugs)))

[muffin0]

Seriously if you are anywhere around Tampa (hell I'll drive pretty much anywhere in FL) I will come get you and the kids.

[hisno1girl]

I'm so sorry that your husband is being so cruel.

You don't deserve this and neither do your children.

You will get 100% support here now and until the time you are ready to make the next move.

A million hugs to you.

[Deleted]

You deserve better, and your kids deserve better. Kids are perceptive, and they are either learning that it is ok to treat people this way or worse yet, it is ok to be treated this way. The price you are paying for stability is way too high. I hope you find a counselor to help you through this because life doesn't have to be this hard.

[cville]

You deserve to leave. You can. You don't feel strong enough, but you are. This isn't what mutual love looks like.

[cinderbella]

Oh man. I'm so, so sorry. You deserve so much better than this. Please be safe and know we are all thinking of you. Don't hesitate to ask for more than that - this is a really good group.

[venice2007]

Huge hugs
Please be safe and take care of yourself. You deserve so much more!

[tulips]

I'm very sorry. I'm in Indianapolis and can help if you are around here.

[meganew]

You deserve a thousand times better than this. Please, please take us up on our offer- some of us have to be close to you.