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Thanks for asking! It went well. She said everything looked good visually. The pap results will be ready in a few days. If abnormal, same as last time: go back for colposcopy. The main symptom I was worried about didn't seem to worry her, so I feel a lot better!

I just interacted with a guy for a total of 2 messages before he unmatched me, lol. I'm a bit mystified why, as I told him I was busy at work since I had just returned after a few days of vacation and I asked him if caught the Preds game last night. Online dating is the best, lol.

My flight leaves this afternoon and some pretty severe storms are supposed to move in today, which makes me nervous and I'm already a nervous flier anyway. Ugh, I might have to buy a drink at the airport.

As I packed last night, I realized I own so much black clothing that I'm basically wearing black my entire trip. I feel so comfortable in black clothing though! Yesterday I wore a bright blue shirt to work and I ended up spilling some lunch on myself and lamented that I wasn't wearing black, lol.

When I was in Ulta last night they had a Makeup Revolution display and I didn't know anything about it, so I skipped it. NOOOOOOOO!

jojoandleo that is terrifying. I'm glad she's doing better. Hopefully the worst is past.

messykitchen , that is horrible of him. What a major dickface.

Why are people so...confusing/weird...on online dating apps? I literally asked a guy on Bumble HOW HIS DAY WAS GOING and he just responded by asking me if I'm attracted to him (wouldn't me swiping yes be indicative that I thought he was attractive?), he then immediately messaged me again and asked me if I'm specifically attracted to his physical appearance (??), followed by yet another message that said he's attracted to me (uh, okay), and then a final message that he wants to be "honest and direct." wtf. I simply asked how his day was going! So annoying. It's like, dude, have you ever had a conversation before?

I'm leaving for NYC tomorrow!!!

I am a little stressed about getting everything ready to go tonight, but that's just a normal part of my nerves before any trip.

sweetchix, I like the one you posted a lot. I agree, I think round would look great in that space.

Cheating is such a mindfuck and I'm sorry you are going through it. Counseling helped me so, so, so much after I found out my exH was cheating and it helped me sort out my feelings regarding what steps I wanted to take in my life.

A. E. Housman (1859-1936) is my absolute favorite. I can't decide between these three:

XVIII
(This was written about Oscar Wilde's trial for being a homosexual. Housman was gay as well.)

Oh who is that young sinner with the handcuffs on his wrists?
And what has he been after that they groan and shake their fists?
And wherefore is he wearing such a conscience-stricken air?
Oh they're taking him to prison for the colour of his hair.

'Tis a shame to human nature, such a head of hair as his;
In the good old time 'twas hanging for the colour that it is;
Though hanging isn't bad enough and flaying would be fair
For the nameless and abominable colour of his hair.

Oh a deal of pains he's taken and a pretty price he's paid
To hide his poll or dye it of a mentionable shade;
But they've pulled the beggar's hat off for the world to see and stare,
And they're haling him to justice for the colour of his hair.

Now 'tis oakum for his fingers and the treadmill for his feet
And the quarry-gang on Portland in the cold and in the heat,
And between his spells of labour in the time he has to spare
He can curse the God that made him for the colour of his hair.

Additional Poems VII
(Written after Housman had his heart broken.)

He would not stay for me, and who can wonder?
He would not stay for me to stand and gaze.
I shook his hand, and tore my heart in sunder,
And went with half my life about my ways.

I - EASTER HYMN
(Housman was an atheist.)

If in that Syrian garden, ages slain,
You sleep, and know not you are dead in vain,
Nor even in dreams behold how dark and bright
Ascends in smoke and fire by day and night
The hate you died to quench and could but fan,
Sleep well and see no morning, son of man.

But if, the grave rent and the stone rolled by,
At the right hand of majesty on high
You sit, and sitting so remember yet
Your tears, your agony and bloody sweat,
Your cross and passion and the life you gave,
Bow hither out of heaven and see and save.

@bigtowlittletoe, damn, I am so sorry.

I just posted randoms, too, but I'll move mine here!

I am obsessed with the Hamilton soundtrack. I'm sad because I caught wind of it early last year and emailed my friend in Feb. 2015 about this cool musical I wanted to try to go see when I was in NYC next visiting him. HAHA! Not a real option now!

It is so gorgeous outside. I'm so jealous of anyone who gets to hangout outdoors today. It's beautifully sunny in the low 80s!

I laid out by the pool for a while today, and tonight I'm going over to a friend's house for dinner.

Oh, my boss told me unofficially I am getting a raise on July 1st! Yay!!