Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 22, 2013 20:38:19 GMT -5
My stbXH is a fucking dick. He has been out late so much lately. I looked at our phone bill today to check my data usage and saw that in two and a half weeks he has sent/received 1800 text messages. I can only imagine how many people he is sexting and sleeping with. I wish I could afford to get my own place right now, but there is just no way. I hate being in this house with him. I 100% don't love him anymore, but it hurts so bad to know he is still doing that shit. It proves to me that there is nothing I did or could have done to save our marriage. I am so glad I am divorcing his stupid ass.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 22, 2013 10:29:59 GMT -5
Heavy or light sleeper? light
Covers on or off? on, except for one foot sticking out
Back, side, stomach sleeper? stomach
Completely dark or some light? dark
Socks on or off? off
Legs straight or bent? one leg straight with my toes hooked over the end of the bed, other leg bent
Hands under or over pillow? under
Background noise (white noise, music, TV, etc.) or silent? box fan and a white noise maker turned on full blast (the noise maker became necessary when my cat started yeowling at the door at 4:30 in the morning
Middle, left or right side of bed? left
Cuddle or need your space? do not touch me while I am trying to sleep!
Bonus Question: If you have a nightstand or bed table, what do you keep on it? my lamp, book, white noise maker, alarm, headphones, phone
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 22, 2013 9:25:12 GMT -5
I am up way earlier than I would ever want to be on my day off. The self help facilitator office at the courthouse doesn't open until 8 but people start lining up at 7, and they only help the first 40 people in line. Divorce is fun.
I wonder how much weight I've lost in the past 3 weeks. Aside from a couple of snack cakes between yesterday and today, I haven't eaten since Friday.
Casanova is still spending a lot of time hiding under the covers and he still meowed a lot last night. I just want him to be his usual happy self.
For whatever reason today is the day that the reality of the past few weeks is really hitting me. I've been able to hold it together but part of me would really like to break down. I'm not going to, though. I'm stronger than that.
Yikes, please please try to eat. Something. Anything. Hell, come over tomorrow night and I will cook you dinner. And cry if you need to. It doesn't mean you are weak, it just means you are hurting. That is natural. Hang in there and please call me if you need anything.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 13, 2013 21:43:31 GMT -5
I have so many questions.
This is over a video game?
Did this kid get grounded for life after behaving like an animal?
What did he say when he saw this video? Was he fucking ashamed? I can imagine a young child having this reaction, but seeing a teenage boy act like this makes me weep.
Why, oh why, was I laughing my ass off when this is really pathetic. I was laughing so hard.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 13, 2013 19:15:12 GMT -5
I filed my divorce papers today. I am experiencing an odd mix of sadness and relief. I have come to realize that I do not love him anymore (which makes living in the same house much easier). The tears I shed today were not because I am losing him, but because of what he did to me. That is progress! I am very excited for the rest of my life.
I just went to the family law facilitators office to make sure all of my initial divorce paperwork is filled out correctly. I burst into tears as soon as the lady sat down to help me.
Thank you. That made my day. Right back at you!!! I hope the apartment works out. Text me if you ever need anything!
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 7, 2013 12:30:01 GMT -5
I just went to the family law facilitators office to make sure all of my initial divorce paperwork is filled out correctly. I burst into tears as soon as the lady sat down to help me.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Nov 4, 2013 16:26:34 GMT -5
I love the holidays. I love Christmas music, buying gifts for everyone, and being around my family. The holidays were nice even when we moved across the country from our family because one of our friends would always take us in for Thanksgiving, and we had Christmas by ourselves with our family traditions. Now that I'm getting a divorce, the impending holidays are making me very sad. I asked if I can work all of the holidays. It is usually a lot of fun because it's either really busy and flies by, or we all sit around and eat yummy catered food that the owner buys, talk, and enjoy each others company. Anytime that I can be NOT at the house with stbxh is great.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 30, 2013 0:13:04 GMT -5
I have a litter box that sits right next to the door leading out into the garage. The pet food is in the garage. In the mornings, when I am gathering up all of the bowls, Darwin runs into the litter box and makes a big deal scratching around and pretending like he's busy peeing and pooping. He really gets dramatic with it. As soon as I open the door to the garage he bolts out of the litter box and into the garage.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 28, 2013 0:16:24 GMT -5
When I had cable and a t.v. in the bedroom it was anything on Court TV. Until I started to be afraid of getting married because so many of the shows featured spouses killing one another. I had to cut back for a while.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 27, 2013 16:57:26 GMT -5
I haven't been on much lately so I think I missed your OP. I am so so sorry you are going through this. As everyone has said, you will be ok, you will get through this, and you will be better for it in the end. I'm struggling with so many of the same things right now, so if you ever need to talk please PM me. In fact, I just thought about health insurance for the first time today. It's all so stressful, but in the end it will be worth it.
I just want to throw in that we use Sentry. They have all natural (various oils blend that kill/discourage fleas) and a chemical one. I have used the chemical one numerous times and haven't had a problem at all.
But I think Frontline is made by Hartz, which is a company/line that is known to cause issues.
Frontline is not made by Hartz, it is made by Merial. You are right, though, that Hartz products have a history of causing really bad reactions.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 20, 2013 23:38:55 GMT -5
I saw it in 3d with seats that move with the action (d-box, maybe?). It was pretty epic. I loved the effects and visuals, but the story got a little boring. Overall I really liked it, though.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 17, 2013 13:04:35 GMT -5
I hate getting the newspaper. I don't subscribe to any, but or city delivers a free newspaper a couple of times a week. I HATE picking it up. I didn't subscribe to it, I'm not going to read it, so why in the world should I pick it up?. They pile up on the driveway for a while until the gardeners put then on the front porch. I don't use the front door, so they just pile up there for a while.