Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 10, 2013 12:48:11 GMT -5
I'm waiting to find out if I get a guest house I looked at on Sunday. It is pretty close to perfect - very small, quite a commute to work, but I could make it work. I can afford the rent and she is fine with all of my animals. Seven other people looked at it, so I should find out today or tommorow. Until I find a place to live I am stuck in our current place with STBxH. Awkward.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Oct 2, 2013 0:17:36 GMT -5
You will get there. It will take time. Soon you will find that you leave each appointment with a new little nugget of information or insight. Write them down. ((fuckstick))
THIRDLY FOLLOW UP QUESTION. Does the idea of being stranded on an island full of GBCNers make you have fear poops? If not, which GBCNer makes you have fear poops the most.
Hint: you can't name a black person or that makes you racist.
Fear poops? I don't even know what that is. So afraid that you have to poop? I've had the stomach flu for 3 days now, it would be awesome if I could poop >.> TMI!
OMG I needed that laugh. Thank you!!! I hope you feel better soon!
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 26, 2013 17:28:10 GMT -5
My therapy appointment today was amazing. She said and helped me realize quite a few important things. I guess the next step is actually filing for divorce. Weird. I'm so lucky to have a wonderful support system of friends, family, and therapy.
(1) How often do you read our board? And to what extent? (2) Would you consider coming to another GTG if we did not have it at a Korean BBQ place?
Yes, this. The GTG was super fun (too bad you couldn't join us for karaoke). One of my favorite recent times. Maybe if we let you pick the type of cuisine? <)
and P.S. Thank you for creating an amazing forum. I love so many of the features here and the community at GBCN is amazing. I'm glad we found you.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 26, 2013 14:00:41 GMT -5
I am so sorry you are going through all of this. Hang in there and listen to the smart ladies on this board. You will come out of this, it will be ok. It's going to suck for a while while you figure out what you want to do and how you are going to do it, but it will someday be ok. ((@vaba))
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 25, 2013 14:48:37 GMT -5
Not a whole hell of a lot.
Woke up at 7:30 to feed the animals (one of the cats was sure he was starving to death)
Went back to sleep
Woke up at 11
Took a shower.
Worked on my budget (how in all the world do people manage to survive on their own in California...I am impressed...and a little freaked out)
I'm going to see a movie by myself in an hour so that I can get out of the house.
I haven't cried yet, that is an accomplishment!! Oh, and I was able to sleep last night without the assistance of sleeping meds or a buzz. Woot woot!!!
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 24, 2013 21:43:11 GMT -5
AW: I was able to cook tonight...sort of. I found a killer lasagna in the freezer that I had made a month ago. I stuck it in the oven and dinner is served. Baby steps!
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 24, 2013 20:33:02 GMT -5
I am so sorry you are going through this. I think everyone has given you good insight. Yes, it will be painful and expensive, but you will save yourself money and pain in the long run. hugs.
Can I get in on this please?!?!!?? I'm having an incredibly difficult time finding and affordable place that will accept my dog and three cats. I'm a little messy, but I can fix that. And I love to cook!!!
I would be your roommate if you lived here. Come to exotic Cleveland, Ohio!
I have found some potential places there are just alot of crazies in my price range.
I thought all of us singles were going in together and getting a superfab house with pool boys and everything.
Can I get in on this please?!?!!?? I'm having an incredibly difficult time finding and affordable place that will accept my dog and three cats. I'm a little messy, but I can fix that. And I love to cook!!!
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 23, 2013 21:55:39 GMT -5
I still have it. I was going to have some fun pictures taken in it because our wedding pictures sucked. That is obviously not going to happen now...I guess I'm going to just sit on it (not literately) for a while and make a descision when it's not so emotional.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 22, 2013 20:26:38 GMT -5
I'm stuck and could use a nudge.
I need to cook dinner. I have food that is going to go bad if I don't cook it. Every time I go to the fridge to get ingredients out I get sick to my stomach because this is going to be the first meal I am cooking for just me. The first meal I'm cooking without my husband in my life. I freeze and just can't do it, and I'm about to burst into tears. Please just tell me to take a deep breath and cook. This seem so silly, but it is really really hard.
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 21, 2013 1:30:05 GMT -5
I'm supposed to be asleep..but I'm not! We had so much fun. Last ones in the restaurant. Of course as soon as I walked back into my house I burst into tears because it was quiet and empty. But that will pass. These two ladies gave me good insight and were great company!
Post by thinklikeajellyfish on Sept 20, 2013 19:42:28 GMT -5
Awww, thanks so much guys. I left work a little early (I just couldn't put in a 10 hour day today). I'm muddling through. It's been really, really hard. Luckily, I guess, I dealt with a lot of these feelings five years ago when it first happened. Now I'm able to hold my head high, know that I did everything I could, and look toward the future. It doesn't help the suck now though. What really really sucks is that in all other aspects we were a great match. And I know that he really does love me. There is just something jacked up in his stupid head, and I'm not willing to deal with it anymore. i don't deserve that. Mourning the loss of a relationship I've had for eight years is really hard, really sad, but I'll come out on top...eventually. In the mean time I'm really looking forward to some drinks with @fucksticklegit and lucky513. <) :drink: :beer: