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I came home after work and blobbed out...full on all I did was watch OITNB and ate shitty food. Then I felt guilty and went to the gym at 9:30pm. Now I am doing a face mask and playing online.

Also, I am finally back on Tinder! My coworker's phone number is what finally got me verified, lol.

UPDATE: 2nd interview Monday morning at 9:30!

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Any good juju, thoughts, or anything you want to throw out into the universe is greatly appreciated! My interview is at 2pm CDT, so I'll let you all know afterward how it went. I hope so much I get this position...it sounds perfect for me.

Thank you!!

Thanks to Broad City I do.

This reminded me of this:

I woke up to my allergies acting up, so I took allergy medicine that completely dried me out. I don't know if it's allergies or due to AF that I am completely exhausted today. Taking a shower felt like a chore.

Tonight I plan to go to bed early. I am going to eat my stressed-out feelings via the pizza I just ordered, lol. I might watch the first episode of OITNB, but I've been rewatching Arrested Development and I don't want to interrupt the flow! Decisions, decisions.

My coworker is no longer going to interview for the job I posted about yesterday, and she even wrote an email to the guy recommending me for the job (she was recommended by someone else for the job to him). I am so hopeful that her recommendation gets my foot in the door!

gozf, you got this and you'll do great and everyone will love you! Good to see you around again!

I applied for the job! dreamcrisp1 @blueyes623

PDQ.

I finally had my review today. I'm not particularly excited about the role she wants me to play even though we discussed what I wanted to do. But ultimately, I did get a raise, but I don't think my pay is fair given my experience (5 years in the field, one with a major site) and academic background (B.S. and M.A. in the field). She said it non-negotiable and fed me a bunch of stuff about how great the insurance is. So I make as much as my coworker who just graduated from college with a B.S. in the field and has 1 year experience under her belt and I make the same as my coworker who has no degrees in the field and 3 months of prior experience in our area. I think I am going to leave soon. I can make more temping and have a 9-5 M-F job. I plan to contact the temp company on Monday.

YOU GUYS.

For the first time in my adult life, I found a bikini top that actually encompasses my bust without me spilling over the cups or me feeling too exposed.

I actually, for once, felt good about my bikini top and how I looked in it!!

Here's the link for those interested. I bought the 2nd one shown: www.target.com/c/ava-viv-brand-shop/-/N-4ym1q#navigation=true&category=4ym1q&searchTerm=&view_type=large&sort_by=Featured&faceted_value=55xjp&offset=0&pageCount=30&response_group=Items&isLeaf=true&parent_category_id=5q0g9&custom_price=false&min_price=from&max_price=to

I'm a 38DDD and I went with an 18W. The 20W fit in the cup better, but the band was too big. The 16W fit best in the band, but the cups were too small. I'm hoping that by the end of the summer I will lose some weight and can hopefully snag a few tops on clearance and use them on my cruise! The clasp isn't the best, but for me, it's a small price to pay! I am literally giddy with excitement.

Yesterday I went out exploring and it was amazingly great for my soul. I heard this song while driving and it felt like the perfect timing to hear it...maybe the just the simple advice I needed to hear: www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qm66N829mw

Today I have errands to get done. I had to handwash something, now I'm doing other laundry. My phone is charging; once charged, I'm heading to the gym. Then I am going to get ready and run to Walmart (blerg) and Target, and maybe swing by the library to get a pool read. Come home, move some laundry, then spend some time at the pool. I also need to get to CVS or Walgreens today or tomorrow to get passport photos made.

My cat is super needy today, but I kind of love it. He is in my lap right now with his arm on my typing hand, lol.

I was sitting on my bed and there was a centipede crawling on my comforter. UGH.

I need to clear my head today and reconnect to myself, so I feel like I need to get out of the city. There is a waterfall about an hour away from me that I think I am going to go explore today. It looks like there is an overlook and a cute general store in the area, too. I might stop by the library before I head out to get a book on CD to listen to on my way there.

There were some rough storms that passed through this afternoon. They made me a little skittish.

It's my Friday night. I might go buy ice cream. I plan to nothing but indulge in Netflix tonight, maybe do a face mask or something, too.

No, I was waiting for my health insurance to kick in (90 day wait), which was supposed to be May 31st, but my job is changing providers and apparently I won't be covered now until mid-July due to the change.

lookforstars, I am so sorry for what happened to you. So many hugs.

My story:
My exH and I started dating on my 16th birthday. We became engaged on my 19th birthday and married a month before I turned 20. We bought a house together and lived a pretty great life together. He became employed in his dream job in the spring of 2009. He lost that job rather abruptly in November 2009 and life along with his personality changed drastically after that. He became emotionally abusive, he started hiding things from me (later I found out he was doing drugs and stealing money from me), and in June 2010 he suddenly moved in with his brother "to find out what he wanted in life." I was so, so, so hurt. I couldn't understand what in the world was happening. In September 2010, one week before my 25th birthday, my best friend caught him walking out of a bar with another woman.
That revelation crashed and burned the only world I'd known. I had no money as I had just started graduate school, and after the discovery of the affair my exH disappeared and stopping paying all the bills completely. My heart was shattered and it took me over a year to find the strength to file for a divorce, which was finalized in February 2012.
The divorce process and afterward was brutal as my exH begged me not to do it, cried and sobbed about how he didn't want to get divorced, and would show up at my house to beg for forgiveness. I eventually moved in with my parents in May 2012 to prevent him from being able to show up whenever; it also allowed me to pay off some debts and save up some money since the break-up process of my exH and myself financially killed me. However, I would randomly see him in the community so I finally made the decision to move to TN at the end of 2013. The last time we talked was April 2014 after he was homeless and arrested in Florida. I saw on Instagram that he is back with OW now, living back in the community I left.

Boss rescheduled meeting to Monday. Fucking sigh.